Someday the Dream will End || 20081126
Somebody asked me why do I like FFX so much? Well, I liked the game because of three reasons: the storyline, the original soundtrack (OST) and the morals (that I somehow find and learn from the game myself). The storyline had really left a great impression in my mind even though I played it six or seven years ago (disclaimer: FFX-2 sucks totally in my opinion). It is after playing that game that kept me awaiting for new Final Fantasy and Kingdom Hearts sequels. And definitely there was much things to learn from the game: fighting strongly for your cause, teamwork, friendships, treasuring your time and many more... Some people may find it stupid how I manage to learn things from good-for-nothing games; but it's the truth that I learn much from games.
Lastly, the music is what I love in the game. I think almost all the songs in the OST is what I like, except for some of the theme songs for the characters. My top three loved songs in FFX is Suteki Da Ne, To Zarnakand and Someday the Dream will End. And that is probably the reason why I put my post title as the third song. Sometimes I do think and take that life is pretty much like a dream. They are quite similar in a sense that life feels very real (or is real, in fact) but yet will eventually come to an end (just like a dream). The phrase "someday the dream will end" have both negative and positive connotations as I always like to interpret. Sometimes I would take this phrase positively which is to feel that life is not unlimited and we have to treasure this dream/life at every frame/moment. However, if I am not feeling low and down, I would probably take this phrase as saying that life and the sorrows I face will eventually end; I will no longer have to live this false dream anymore...
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My group went to CCF this morning and we were very glad that the social worker was really helpful. I myself think I have been given a deeper insight into the challenges of children with cancer. My sister used to be a volunteer there but I never opened my mouth to ask about her experiences before: I guess it's time to ask her about it now... Another thing that came into my mind was why the social worker placed an emphasis that the kids faced ostracism because of their hair loss (due to chemotherapy). I was wondering is looks really that important to the society now? In fact, I guess looks seem to have always been an important factor in the past society (look at the perfectionist Greeks for an example). Doesn't anyone underweigh the looks and outweigh the character instead? Doesn't anyone care for or love the person's heart (and mind) much more than looks? I personally don't feel looks are all that more important because I myself am average-looking (or even worse). And I'm still pondering till now...
"Someday, this dream will end..." FFX
Now and forever etched 5:26 PM
E-learning Week || 20081120
Today was my I&E sales and I can say that it wasn't good at all. The sales was barely enough to cover a third of our expenditure. There were some hiccups that came out there and then. And I came to learn of the inconvenient truth (LOL); the truth that got our team shorthanded (making our strength count down to 4) and suffering losses (both financially and tangibly) even before our official sales started. We were short of clay miniatures to sell (which explains why we had to continue making them even though we had already started our sales). But I guess that's life: you meet with all kinds of people everyday and you learn to face them (and the good and bad they bring along). C'est la vie!
Well, at least I'm glad that this week isn't all bad. I managed to get my long awaited Need for Speed Undercover on the first day of release! Cool! It was as good as Need for Speed Most Wanted (but I still love Carbon most) and way better than the sucky Prostreet. And I'm proud to say I'm quite pro at playing this game: I completed 60% of the whole career mode in just a day! Er huh, beat that! The game's graphics are pretty good but I seriously hate the motion blur effect (I can't savour the beautiful scenery churned out by my Radeon HD 4850 when I'm zooming around at 200+ kph). Currently I'm riding an Audi TT but am saving up for a Nissan GTR or BMW M6 (and ultimately a Murcielago, SLR, F1 or Veyron). I think I need to upgrade to the GTR or M6 first, even though I am left with 100k more to my ultimates, as it's hard to stay on top now; since the Audi was the second car I received after my Lotus Elise (haven't got to use my third car, Evo X yet). I guess I'm not making sense to any non-hardcore car or NFS fans anymore. I shall stop this here.
And this Saturday, I do hope to learn things and see miracles (though I have no faith yet that they are possible for myself) when I go to the Asia Conference to attend Benny Hinn's session. I was told that he is a world-renowned healing evangelist so I'm eager to see him in action. I haven't been able to attend service for quite a while so definitely I hope to get back soon too.
But sadly life isn't all flowers and butterflies (like when I got to play my NFS) for the whole of this e-learning week. I seriously hate such short weeks of holidays (for me). Why wouldn't the school just finish the damn lessons and give us a longer break? Sigh... The whole was wasted like this (no motivation to do any work). Holidays are so going to kill me with lack of motivation and inspiration.
Well, I seemed to have gotten accustomed to whatever sadness brought into my life by either myself or others. It's like almost everyday (most of the days to be politcally correct) is inconsolable sadness. It's probably because I got so tired of it and don't find it worth shedding tears anymore (though I still strangely do on rare ocassions and while watching a few movies) that I shut myself off from them at times. Needless to say, I'm still learning; whether this self shutting off is good or bad is unkown. I will go on...
"Life is not purposeless until you leave this world." Boon Keng (2008)
Now and forever etched 7:21 PM
Scorpio || 20081116
I didn't even realise that so many people I know have their birthdays in November. And here they are:
Nov 4 - My dad
Nov 13 - Shin Ming
Nov 14 - Vash (and of course myself)
Nov 15 - Jia Hui
Nov 16 - Jean
Nov 17 - Ming Hui (yes, he'll be remembered)
Nov 18 - Jocelyn
Nov 21 - Meng Kui
So here's wishing all of them a Happy Birthday! May all your Scorpios' wishes come true!
Now and forever etched 12:43 PM
Talk About Death || 20081113
It was 2 days ago when Mr Gerard Ee announced that he had 3rd stage of colon cancer. I was rather shock when I saw the article (
link here). I had met him once and had enjoyed the small chat with him. That was during the BreadTalk launch of LuvBite bun fundraising event back in 2004 (or somewhere around then) where I was doing co-emceeing. After the emceeing, I got to talk to him a while and found him to be very caring and filled with warmth. He was just what the article described as Mr Charity; a charitable person who can really handle charity organisations well. This was probably just a first impression but it will definitely be a lasting one.
So, he mentioned that it is important to talk about death because "if you treat death as taboo and don't prepare for it, you are leaving behind a legacy in which your family will suffer because you ignore it and pretend it won't happen to you." And indeed, death is what your life would really guarantee. It isn't comforting to talk about death, and I definitely know I will never get rid of that fear of dying, but I know for certain you can't avoid it (why keep silent about something unavoidable?). It isn't easy to face it either and one needs to learn enough to confront it courageously. Sometimes I do see people being able to confront death with so much coolness, but I know deep in them they are intimidated by it. You can't totally say that you're not scared of death but you know you can be assured about death and what happens to people around you (and you, yourself) after the end mark.
I need to learn more about that- how people confronts death. I'm amazed by people who know their remaining lifespan but are able to not shudder and cry their time away. Sometimes they may still do that, but most of the time they are fulfilling their life. It's time to learn of that, everyone. Let's wake up!
I love and treasure life because I know I will no live that life one day!
"Birth and death are both 5-letter words; but why is one celebrated while the other dilapidated?" Boon Keng (2008)
Now and forever etched 5:14 PM
Welcome to Life || 20081104
Yeah! I'm so glad that so many people visited my blog on the first day already. I like to say a warm welcome to life for all of you here. It's quite hard to explain what life is. But I hope I really can find the time and passion to blog it all down!
Now and forever etched 5:14 PM
A Different Story to Tell... || 20081103
I have decided to resummon up my passion to write blogs. I do hope that this lasts though... But I always like to do things differently; deviating from the norm. So, as my blog title suggests, I shall blog on why I love life every post and day. Of course, loving life doesn't mean that all is lovey dovey and great: I sometimes love life because of the twists and turns, the sadness and depressed moments (ironically, I do hope living because of the sadness too).
So for a start, I shan't write a long post but I'll just say I love life because I get to create new things and trends (like this blog).
Now and forever etched 8:33 PM
